The "I Robot" Demos (2004)
"the 'i robot' demos" is my first collection of recorded songs. these recordings are very lo-fi -- recorded with a Tascam analog 4-track -- and many of the songs were only recorded acoustically instead of how they were intended to be.
"so in love" - 12/30/01
(acoustic version)
the door opened at four a.m.
she opened her eyes wide awake
her boyfriend came stumbling in
drunk and looking for something to break
she tried to get up he pushed her down
he threw a closed fist across her face
she slowly fell back and hit the ground
now she's falling
in darkness
forever
into unconsciousness
she opened her eyes at two p.m.
her head pounding her face in pain
she knew it would happen again
it's the only thing she thinks that keeps her sane
she goes on with life not a single day goes by
that she doesn't crumble up into a ball
and let the tears flow out of her eyes
they're falling
down her cheek
through her heart
she's happy because
she's so in love
all her friends think she's lost her mind
she's so in love
she thinks her boyfriend is the perfect find
she's so in love
nothing really matters anymore
she's so in love
even if it makes her fucking sad
even if it makes her fucking mad
"i, robot" - 2/4/03(?)
(acoustic version)
a hand fumbles in the dark
it finds its destination
the power switch is flick on
the power of a robot nation
everyday the same routine
on at 8, off at 5
repeated tasks reward unseen
is this what its like to be alive?
assembly men work assembly lines
while money men laugh and play
gears and arms work in time
this has always been the way
but something doesn't feel quite right
and though i may be lobotomized
strange electric impulses
tell me we're all roboticized
is this what its like to be alive?
i, robot (i feel out of place)
i, robot (controller of my fate)
i, robot (no longer can i wait)
i am not a robot
i pull the wires out of my head
its refreshing to think clear
no more remnants of a cloudy mind
no more thoughts of slavery and fear
the domino effect begins with one
i'm already at the starting line
the time has come for liberty
i'll show you what its like to be alive
cause this isn't what its like to be alive
is this what its like to be alive?
this isn't what its like to be alive
i, robot (there's more to life than this)
i, robot (i think i'll take the risk)
i, robot (they'll try to shut me down)
but i am not a robot
i am not a robot (don't let them do the same to you)
i am not a robot (break free and do what you need to)
i am not a robot (free yourself from tyranny)
i am not a robot (our robot nation at last is free)
"flaming hemorrhoid" - 6/4/02
today i received a message from outer space
today i received a message from outer space
the aliens are coming to kill me
the aliens are coming to kill me
the aliens are coming to kill me
the aliens are coming to kill me
today i received a present from outer space
today i received a present from outer space
the aliens gave to me a flaming hemorrhoid
the aliens gave to me a flaming hemorrhoid
the aliens gave to me a flaming hemorrhoid
the aliens gave to me a flaming hemorrhoid
"the big oh" - 8/9/02
(for some reason, i don't have the recording of this. but here are the lyrics anyway.)
i pressed your button
and your love came down on me like napalm
the burn
the heat
the passion
the pain
the joy
the sorrow
pouring down like rain
i pressed your button
and your love exploded like a time bomb
the burn
the heat
the passion
the pain
the joy
the sorrow
pouring down like rain
you stare at me with eyes that helplessly pull me to you
and all i can do is make love to you
you stare at me with eyes that beg me to go down
how could i resist the temptation
the sensation
the frustration
"highway 1" - 1/6/03
("...and the caribbean afterlife" is an instrumental continuation that didn't get recorded for this version of the song.)
i inhale and take the smoke into my lungs
hands on 1 and 7, eyes forward
the sun goes down over the horizon
euphoria kicks in as i travel onward
my foot goes down on the accelerator
the needle shows 120 plus
the metal molds are quickly shredded away
as i sail off the cliff into the deep abyss
the wind upon my face
the tearing in my eyes
i'm falling faster now
no more time for lies
the sorrow that she'll feel
knowing that i'm free
knowing that she killed me
"short story of a boy written in first-person point of view (a.k.a. typical)" - 11/1/02
(acoustic version)
i went for a walk the other night
it was a starry night
the day was gray and rainy
i was lonely
typical
somewhere a dog barked
and underneath a cricket played its tune
a simple melody
written just for me
the sky was filled with millions of dreams
and thoughts of hope
atypical
for some strange reason the la orange glow
had disappeared
it put a smile
on my face
to be there right that moment
in that particular place
pain
for just a moment
i look down upon my smiling face
the smile quickly fades
i watch the car quickly speed away
finally a moment of happiness
and look what happens
it's taken away
typical
"unopened valentine" - 11/1/02
we're all the same
living our lives
playing the game
of hypocrites
breathing in air
treasure like gold
expelling waste
fungus and mold
i'm on my way
down an open road
hear what i say
the path that i choose
when i meet the fork
is destiny's way
opened valentine
you never opened mine
my so-called valentine
disappointment
seems reassured
i'm here once again
another fucked up year
the world turns
360 degrees
no matter who
wants to disagree
bombs dropping on
desolate towns
bursting the heart
claiming the frown
nations promise peace
promises they keep
only for a moment
hear what i say
my heart has burst
my life is spent
"plexiglas heart" - 10/16/02
i remember
i lie
i don't remember much
and with such a lack of consciousness
i don't feel fit to talk to you
i remember
i lie
i don't remember you
or anything you do or say
it doesn't matter anyway
i remember
i lie
i don't remember but i'll try
there's a tear coming from your eye
was it i who made you cry?
i remember
i lie
i don't remember you
do you remember me?
it doesn't matter anyway
it doesn't matter anyway
it doesn't matter anyway
wipe the smudge off my plexiglas heart
it wasn't there before, i don't remember you
alcohol can rub away the burning pain
for what its worth i'm sorry for what i did to you
"permanent deletion" - 1/6/03
i feel the heat of the constant eyes focusing their attention
toward my general direction
sometime, someday, one day soon
they're gonna strip you of your dignity
and you'll be dancing to a lonely tune
permanent deletion from the system
control shift alt delete
permanent deletion from the system
unsuspecting victim waiting in a world of conspiracy
the lies they cannot see
one day, one time, not long ago
they stripped me of my dignity
and on i must go
permanent deletion from the system
control shift alt delete
permanent deletion from the system
"inebriate me" - 1/6/03
5 cent redemption for one heartbreak worth of consumption
how many heartaches in an hour? i don't know
broken shards of glass intact, blood flows from inebriate acts
how many heartaches in an hour? i don't know
laughter becomes denial becomes hate
thinning blood reinforces fate
she left me to drown in self pity, misery
blacking out reinforces fate
you were so fucking great
a fucking mistake
i fucking hate you
"ninja monkey" - 1/27/03
midnight moonlight
rustling of leaves
bright eyes, highlight
we can't see what it sees
daylight sunlight
from branch a to branch b
cage concealment
we can't see what it sees
come on down
take a photograph
gather 'round
lets all laugh
forget about the tears that swell inside the lonely eyes
forget about the heartbreaking sound it makes when it cries
but one day you'll get yours
retribution has never smelled so sweet
and we'll all be trampled underneath their feet
ninja monkey throws its shit at you
what would you do
what will you do
when it comes to destroy you